University

Here's something you kids didn't know about. Socially, university is the best. Guess what, that's why everyone loves it so much. The going to university itself? Jesus Christ, these lectures bore me. Nah, if you have enough passion for your subject and ambition to pursue your career then you'll love your course sure, but me, I have trouble just going in (Not just because I don't wake up, thank you Hannan) but because I really have no passion for it. Why don't I drop out, oh yeah try Middle Eastern parents. Nah who am I kidding, when do I listen to them. I don't want to disappoint though. Anyway, I'm going to stick through as much as I can and hope I don't get kicked out for never showing up, and hopefully it'll grow on me. I'll just go with the flow and see where life takes me. Everything happens for a reason and there's a reason I'm here now. Not just because I'm too lazy to go somewhere else, which is not the case. There is always a reason. I ended up here through so much cause and effect in my life. I've already found some of those reasons :] but I'm sure there's more. Keep digging man.

Perfection To Me

I just want to dedicate this particular post to my amazing girlfriend who (of course in return to MY AWESOMENESS... nah jk ;] ) is always there to look after me when I need her, always puts a smile on my face and who makes every day worth it. Thank you so much Hannan, I hope I return this feeling you give me everyday, because all I want to see is that smile on your face never fading.

THE PAIN

So it seems I'm completely ill, and I have something called... well it was something-itis. Fortunately, viral infection, it'll go naturally. But note to future self, never eat uncooked meat you idiot. Assuming that is what caused it. The pain yesterday was immense, and a loss of appetite means weight loss and feeling dizzy all the time. Great. Now I know how fasting feels. Hey, hey *nudge* more like SLOWING, because time goes so slowly! HAHAH! Get it? Yeah... nice joke. Thanks.

On My Way

Okay I have managed to do a couple of the things I wanted to, but I still need to do all the rest! And talk about saving money... Do you know how expensive Hamster cages are? Anyway, one day, I hope to have THIS mofo:

Found it on Google. Awesome right? I should really get back to work. Take care people.

Life of a Lazy Student

Okay, starting tomorrow, I will do something productive! *Next Day* Okay, starting tomorrow... We've all been there. It sucks. I really need to bring myself to say 'Right now I will...' Rather than 'tomorrow.' I have so much to do, or so much I want to do, but I just feel like going back to sleep. *Yawn* I won't get my life on track this way, but hey, look on the bright side... oh wait there isn't one. I need some motivation damn it! Inspiration! I left the bad life behind, no drink, no drugs, no smoking ever again. But I guess I found other ways to be unhealthy, like lack of exercise and diet. I really should just get up right now. GET UP. Shit, I'm not. Great. I went and bought a hamster yesterday. Let's hope the student hall people don't find out and evict me. Motivation... where can I purchase some... I'm even starting to backtrack on spirituality, I really need to step up my game. Where's my girlfriend when I need her. :] But seriously, I am in dire need of energy. What can I do... I'd go long-board but my legs are dead. Okay, I'm going. When I next write on here I swear to God, I better have done EVERYTHING. Like even eaten my own head. No not that, just everything I plan on doing this weekend. I depend on future me. Or past me will be PISSED. Let's go...

You Are Perfection

I used to think that we always have to be the better person to be good, to overcome the bad in the world. Now I realise that we're all perfect, but it's the illusion that we aren't that creates what we call bad. We're always given the opportunity of unconditional love, but we never stop to listen to it. The minute we start to judge ourselves and others, we go back to what we call 'less than perfect.' Just open your eyes and look at what you're capable of, the human mind is unlimited. :]

A Journey Of A Thousand Miles Starts With A Single Step

I remember the days when I was a child, not more than six. Everything in my senses were perfect. A perfect vision, full of colour, joy. Life. Perfect sounds, laughter, nature. Perfect smells, of flowers and the big world outside. Perfect tastes, the special treat of having something sweet melt on your tongue. Perfect touch, where your parents would comfort you and you'd feel secure. And of course, a perfect mind. This was most important, the imagination, the innocence of being a child. I remember feeling...somehow never bored. I guess I can learn from that even today. To try to feel that same way I used to as a child. I do find it difficult. The imagination, to be able to sit in a box with a friend or by myself for hours, needing nothing but that box, and my imagination flows naturally. It feels like getting older creates limitations, our minds start to develop bad feelings and thoughts, negative thoughts, prejudice, envy, fragmentation, libido, hate, anger, but real anger, and true depression. We start to fear, we realise the reality of the world, that there are bad people, much worse than the 'bad guys' in cartoons we'd watch, evil people with no 'heroes' to save us from them. So we start living our lives in a way to avoid pain. Everywhere we go we try to avoid feeling pain, any kind of pain, emotional, physical, mental. And of course, this sets more limitations into our lives. Then there is a very, microscopic small percentage of people who don't live their life through avoiding pain, but through spreading love. They see through the eyes of love. This creates something beautiful. To see through love alone is how I want to live my life.

We Are One

Let me share this with anybody who is reading this. If there is one thing I have learnt throughout my life is that we are, as products of existence itself, one with everything else. We are made up of the same energy that created other people, animals, insects, trees, plants, the ocean, the earth, the stars, the universe. We all share something in common. And like other living creatures, we too feel pain. Like all things in the universe we are impermanent. There is nothing here that exists for good. Everything, whatever it may be, has a beginning, and an end. We have a heart that beats. This beating heart is the same as anybody else who has a heart, and the very earth we live on. The earth itself has a vibrational pulse, which can be measured. Plants grow out of the earth so naturally, there is no strain, things just grow. We all, everything, we grow. And we feel pain, we feel happiness, we feel the same feelings. When we try to hurt something or someone, we end up hurting ourselves. For example, when one has a bad thought about someone, does that thought really hurt the other person? No, they have absolutely no clue about it. We only create our own pain and suffering, our own downfall. We attract this. So why not, think positively? Why not wrap your fears and hate in love? Let us feel happy that we are a part of everything else. Let’s take this journey and see where it takes us, who knows where we'll go after this life? Will we still exist? Who knows. But one thing is certain, and that is that we are here now, and we will not disappear into the atmosphere. Your life is significant, and you can find happiness if you want to. So go out there and find it, and stare into life's eyes with a big fat smile on your face.